The Letter
Below is the letter I wrote to my ex-fiance about a month after we separated and after spending the week house sitting our home and dog while he was off on vacation. During this week of being in the home that was once mine, I became suicidal at one-point, I cried every day for hours upon hours, I did nothing but sit in my emotions and look at where I was and why what was happening to me, was happening to me. I spent almost every hour of every day researching how to make a relationship work, what makes a successful relationship, etc. I just dove in and tried to consume as much knowledge as I could. I tried to process my emotions and feelings as best as I could. And the end result was a 12 page written letter to my ex-fiance asking him to stay and work on our relationship. I don't regret this week, I don't regret writing this letter and I don't regret reading it to him. Because what I didn't know then that I do know now - is that this letter was the beginning for me. It w...